kink, religion, personal experience and self identity+
Had a date last night ask me how I feel that growing up extremely evangelical christian has affected my identity and the life that I am now pursuing.It's an interesting ask, because i know there are elements of that belief system still in me somewhere, and that I will continue to deconstruct and deprogram all that as my life goes on. But on the other hand, I didn't want to just say "I operate in opposition to how I was raised", so I did end up giving a longer spiel about how I've worked to change my maladaptive core beliefs and work through my religious trauma, and the freedom I've found in embracing hedonism, and the value I've found in integrating elements of paganism, satanism, and other spiritual and philosophical traditions. It led to a lovely conversation! I've been percolating over some of what I said, some of what my date said...
But today I'm mostly just thinking about how much certain kinks I have (corruption, most notably) are in my mind probably directly because of the tradition I was raised in
