sex-related question about sexual attraction
so this one has long since operated on the assumption that it is normal ™️ but has realized recently that it does not at all function as most humans or other creatures do, and along those lines, doesnt experience attraction the same way others do, which is why it considers itself to be asexual.this isnt to say that it hasnt found people or ideas or things to be attractive or exciting in that way, but simply that it just hasnt really ever had what it considers to be “the awakening” of sexual attraction that it has heard some neurotypical people mention. they sometimes talk about this as “one day at age ____ i looked at a pretty woman” and, for lack of a better term, wanted to fuck, and from that point on were just consistently finding people attractive
this one has only ever gotten that pull when it first started progesterone or some other new hormonal change and it only lasted about a month tops
aside from that it has never ever had that drive of “needing to fuck” that most humans seem to experience. it has a very hard time conceptualizing that.
it does not understand how people ever have the desire to “check someone out”
for a long time, even until recently, just thought that it was broken somehow, before realizing that yes, it operates under very different protocols than most
do people genuinely just see someone and have this almost primal urge to reproduce?
aside from occasionally finding some oddly specific thing that makes it flustered for a few minutes it has never had that sort of experience